A Statement For 2024
New Year's Eve reflections
I know this is unusual, two posts in one day! But I wrote down some thoughts this morning, and it felt like they needed to be shared today.
Today is New Year’s Eve. The Christmas decorations are starting to feel like clutter, and there are still a few opened presents piled into random corners. I am choosing to ignore all of that, and I’m sitting next to our wood stove with a cheap mechanical paper and a list of New Year’s Eve questions.
I don’t think I’ve ever taken such intentional time on New Year’s Eve to reflect on the previous year, but if I’ve needed it any year, it’s this one. “Pick three words to describe this past year,” the paper commands me. My three words combined give an impression of the year that feels more negative than it actually was, but I don’t think I can change any of them.
Quiet. So many years can be described this way, but this is how the year felt internally for me. Not alot happened this year that was life-changing, there were no major events. We didn’t do anything very grand. We made outings of local sights, we played alot of games, we hung around here. We visited family, had dinners with friends, went to the pool, went roller skating, went on hikes. No huge vacations or parties or weekend trips. Just quiet. There is a subtle difference between “quiet” and “peace”, but I found this year that the first can lead to the second if you have the right perspective.
Disappointments. Alot of things did not go to plan this year. We had to cancel plans, shell out savings money for broken appliances, and subsequently rework our budget. We weren’t able to take a trip to see our dear out-of-state friends as planned, and that one hurt. We had some unexpected challenges that made me slow down and appreciate the time I have with my loved ones, because each day is a gift, but we don’t always notice that. Many things that happened this past year have reminded me that death can come for us at any time - and having that in mind shouldn’t be morbid, but should fix my eyes on things that really matter. Knowing God more, loving Him better, living “before the face of God” - coram Deo, something I learned from R. C. Sproul - these are pursuits that are never wasted. Disappointments remind us Christians that this world isn’t our ultimate home. We are just passing through.
“You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they find their rest in You.”
-Augustine
Togetherness. Even though we didn’t get to do all the grand things this year, in the end, I think it was a good thing. We had to get a little more creative to plan fun things to do, and those things ended up being fun because of the people we were with, not the thing we were doing. I’ve appreciated more than ever having a happy, healthy family life, having friends we love, having extended family relationships that are a peaceful joy in our lives. Not everyone can say those things. These are true riches.
“Create a statement that describes this past year for you,” the paper prompts me.
I tap my pencil against my teeth, and hesitate. Creating a phrase to represent a whole year is no small task.
This is what I scribble down.
Disappointments are inevitable, but time is a treasure I can’t take for granted.
Lord, teach me to number my days, that I may gain a heart of wisdom.